We got the numbers today!

So I get a call from the OB's office today and they gave me the all important numbers.....18DPO was 1,317 and the 20DPO was 2,405!

Hmmm you may not know the relevence of these numbers...so just visit this site: betabase.com And look at the HCG charts for singleton's, twins and triplets. You will find that my numbers are in the high range for twins and the middle range for singleton's.

Either I have 1 healthy baby or twins or more. So we will be having our U/S on the 27th of this month. I am scared and excited to see how many sweet peas we have growing in there. I feel that there is possibly 2...hopefully NOT more. I have been sick enough for twins though...let's just say I wouldnt be surprised. Well until next time....When I have the count!

First OB appointment...

So today we had our first OB appointment. Nothing fancy just weight, B/P taken and my PG was confirmed on the OB pregnancy test. So I get my folders of paperwork to look over, the first trimester gift and my B-12 shot for my nausea. I also went to get my labs drawn to check the HCG levels along with my progesterone levels. I will go back in 48 hours to get them rechecked to see how they are progressing.

I got my sono scheduled for 2 weeks away. They want to check the "count" as they say...since I was on fertility meds I have increased risk of multiples. So here we are in another 2WW to see how the baby is doing and how many I have.

Cant wait to post the updates...until Friday I guess-Terra

Am I still in Limbo?

Well I haven't been a very good blogger these past few months...I guess I was in a funk. The No BFP funk! So where did leave off? What cycle was I on when I dropped off the map and disappeared?

Ok So I went to see my OB who was wonderful and gave me what I wanted in the dose I wanted. She has never given Femara before and was willing to let me try it. So I also woke up that morning with a horrible case of Pink Eye...I thought.
My OB tells me to go to my primary doc ASAP. Turns out I had Keratitus in my eyes and I had 20/400 vision with 2 corneal ulcers in my right eye. I was on 3 types of drops that were all contraindicated for TTC/PG and I had no idea because I couldnt see. So after I could open my eyes in the daylight without sunglasses I read the warnings and realized that I had just taken them through my whole luteal phase. Those drops stopped my implantation of my 4 eggs I had released. So that was another failed cycle.

So then I had to go through crap to get a refill of my Femara and they were late in getting it. So I took all the pills on CD5 and hoped for the best. Also I upped my fertility meds by double on certain days and the low dose on others. I didnt trigger this cycle due to not being monitored properly so I let my body release what it wanted too. I had also started to take baby aspirin..but stopped before ovulation. I instead started taking Medrol a cortisol for my adrenals. Then I used my HCG trigger as a booster along with my progesterone and I started to feel sick about 10DPO. I wanted to wait to test because if it was negative then we were going to stop TTC for a while. So after being sick for days and having high temps on my chart I decided that after being 3 days late I should test. I got my BFP!!!!

I am so excited! But scared in the same breath! I fear more than 1 for this PG and I can barely hold 1 baby to term...so how would it be with 2-3? I have my first OB appointment tomorrow to get my Beta and my shots for nausea. Hopefully they will do a U/S. We will see.

So far this is what the baby looks like...right now...


We are so happy for this BFP....it is a wonderful surprise...filled with funny events. I ovulated on the way to Magic Mountain a theme park I had my hubby take me too so I could ride the rides just in case I got PG. Then while there I had a henna tattoo of 3 baby feet on my lower back. One for my DD, Savannah and the other for my DS, Marcus. The last tiny baby foot was for the "new baby". And the tattoo has lasted the 2 weeks and is just starting to fade right as I find out that I am PG. Cute story...HUH? Also my due date is my DD's birth date. Although I wont have the baby then but still it is too funny how it all ties in with the family.

This is enough posting for now...I will use this as my journal of PG thoughts and happenings as they come. Can't wait to document my journey...the last one through motherhood. -Terra

In the land of LIMBO

Oh man, I hate being in the land of LIMBO. What I mean by that is I am still waiting to see if I am PG or not.....And still waiting. Let me update you on what happened since I last updated....

Well around CD10 I woke up with an obsessive thought in my head. I was supposed to be taking the month off from TTC but I couldn't see myself just wasting a whole cycle. Plus, if I was to become Pg on this cycle I would have the baby on our wedding anniversary. So the obsessive thought was this.....I had all my donated meds sitting there calling my name and that whole night I was thinking the process through for the following month. And realized that if you dont get injections early enough the body will pick only 1 lead follicle to mature. So I was already on CD10 and mine was picked already. All I needed was to make sure it matured, right? So I got up at 3am to go investigate if others had taken booster shots of FSH/LH to mature the eggs for ovulation. And after a lengthy session I did find a few cases.

So the morning of CD10 I awoke thinking about my pros and cons. Pros: I could have a chance at having a really great ovulation. I could possibly get PG and have my anniversary present. Cons: I could mess up and throw off my cycle since I wasnt a doc. I have never given anyone let alone myself a shot before. And the fear of the whole situation was enough to make me stop and call myself crazy. But the drive to become PG finally won and now I had to figure out how to get needles.
I ended up raiding the lupron kit for a needle. And after talking it through with my hubby, I drew up my shot.
I gave myself the lowest dose and after sitting there working up the courage to just do it. I followed the same routine on CD12 and then I called the OB office to get a STAT u/s. I had gotten my follicle to 25mm and that was the perfect size.
I was charting my temps this whole time and noticed my temps jumped up super high and then I was given cross hairs for ovulation. I then saw my RE who told me that I was borderline low ovarian reserve and I needed shots. Then 2 days later I had my OB appointment and she saw my temps chart and said it looked like I may have gotten PG already. So I have been testing since DPO9-14 and still no +. I am using super sensitive test and still nothing. So now I am waiting for my blood test tomorrow to see for sure if I am PG or not. I "Feel" PG but could be the high amount of progesterone they have me on.
Next month I am hoping to have my OB give me some femara and let me do some more booster shots. I see her on Tuesday and I hope she will go along with me for one more cycle. Here is to hoping that soon I am out of the land of LIMBO.

I am in uncharted territory here!

This whole blog thing is a little mystery to me. So I decided to dive in head first into the blogging world and just make a blog of my own. Maybe this will turn into a type of therapy for me by writing all my thoughts down. I really don't care if I have readers or not, right now this is just for me.

So here I am.....Well I guess I better start this blog off right by telling you about me. I am 29 and am happily married to my husband,Tim. Been married for 7 years. We met on AOL in Feb. 2001, and were married on Dec. 31 2001. We went through 4 1/2 years of infertility and tried many treatments. We spent close to $1,000 on treatments. I was told to lose 100 lbs to help my hormones balance out and to help my chances of a healthy pregnancy. I had the Gastric Bypass in May 2003. I have lost 120 lbs. I still had infertility even after the weight loss. I was told that I had PCOS which I started researching throughly. I started progesterone therapy and made an appointment with a prominent RE here in town. On my first visit he did and u/s and showed me where I was ovulating! I was surprised to see this and he went on to say that my lining was too thin to support a pregnancy and to call when I started AF. Well I never started and I got a BFP when I took my HPT!

So our first Miracle, Savannah was born April 18th 2005. Then when she was 1 we decided to try for #2. It took me 2 months and I got my BFP! We were over the moon at this second miracle pregnancy. Marcus was born Dec. 14 2006. So knowing that my time is short to have children I wanted to try for at least one more. I started TTC in June of last year. I have been trying all things natural with no results. My cycles are really messed up and this is even with progesterone. So next month May 14th I will be seeing the RE again. Hopefully this time he will be able to help me out.

I was able to have 2 kind souls DONATE fertility meds to me. Yes unopened boxes of Menopur, Bravelle and Lupron. And the other women gave me 30 pills of Clomid. I have no insurance coverage for this and this was a great gift to have been given. So knowing that clomid doesnt work with me, I am hoping that the RE will use Femara and injectables so we can get this show on the road.

I will be using the blog as my outlet to vent and my place to record this roller coaster journey of life.