In the land of LIMBO

Oh man, I hate being in the land of LIMBO. What I mean by that is I am still waiting to see if I am PG or not.....And still waiting. Let me update you on what happened since I last updated....

Well around CD10 I woke up with an obsessive thought in my head. I was supposed to be taking the month off from TTC but I couldn't see myself just wasting a whole cycle. Plus, if I was to become Pg on this cycle I would have the baby on our wedding anniversary. So the obsessive thought was this.....I had all my donated meds sitting there calling my name and that whole night I was thinking the process through for the following month. And realized that if you dont get injections early enough the body will pick only 1 lead follicle to mature. So I was already on CD10 and mine was picked already. All I needed was to make sure it matured, right? So I got up at 3am to go investigate if others had taken booster shots of FSH/LH to mature the eggs for ovulation. And after a lengthy session I did find a few cases.

So the morning of CD10 I awoke thinking about my pros and cons. Pros: I could have a chance at having a really great ovulation. I could possibly get PG and have my anniversary present. Cons: I could mess up and throw off my cycle since I wasnt a doc. I have never given anyone let alone myself a shot before. And the fear of the whole situation was enough to make me stop and call myself crazy. But the drive to become PG finally won and now I had to figure out how to get needles.
I ended up raiding the lupron kit for a needle. And after talking it through with my hubby, I drew up my shot.
I gave myself the lowest dose and after sitting there working up the courage to just do it. I followed the same routine on CD12 and then I called the OB office to get a STAT u/s. I had gotten my follicle to 25mm and that was the perfect size.
I was charting my temps this whole time and noticed my temps jumped up super high and then I was given cross hairs for ovulation. I then saw my RE who told me that I was borderline low ovarian reserve and I needed shots. Then 2 days later I had my OB appointment and she saw my temps chart and said it looked like I may have gotten PG already. So I have been testing since DPO9-14 and still no +. I am using super sensitive test and still nothing. So now I am waiting for my blood test tomorrow to see for sure if I am PG or not. I "Feel" PG but could be the high amount of progesterone they have me on.
Next month I am hoping to have my OB give me some femara and let me do some more booster shots. I see her on Tuesday and I hope she will go along with me for one more cycle. Here is to hoping that soon I am out of the land of LIMBO.